A Moment to Remember

I tend to over analyze everything. What people say. What they don't say. A conversation I had last week. A stare. A lack of input from someone. What did they mean by that?

I pretty much try to read and dig into everything and every moment.
I only get really hypersensitive over certain things though.
Like..
Lukas for instance has said a few times lately
"Mom, I wish Diezel and Xia would go back to Africa."
"When are we ever going to be a happy family again."

Ouch.
How do I respond?
What is he really trying to say?
What do I tell the twins when they hear him?
Do I make a big deal out of it?
Is he resentful?
What have I done wrong?
Does he understand what that means?
Oh crap, how do I fix this?

Then I step back.
I stop getting into a self made frenzy.
And I look.


This is what I see

Group hugs

Brotherly chest bumps

Making silly faces while mom is not looking.

Having epic driveway races

And then I know...
It's okay.
Sometimes we say things we don't mean or understand in the heat of a moment.
We may feel a certain way during that moment.
But that one moment
is just a moment.
When all the other ones
are like these.
This is what we will remember.