Monday, October 13, 2008

Eyes Closed

How have the twins changed the most since coming home?
Besides the tremendous weight gain? Last check Xia was 19 pounds and Diezel was 21 pounds! Wowzer!


I think one of the biggest changes is; They now sleep with their eyes closed. It has taken months, but they both snuggle down in their bed, close their eyes and sleep peacefully. I remember the first day I laid down with them in Africa, before Adam got there. Even though Xia would not let me go, she refused to look at me and when she did it was with a look of mistrust and disgust. Diezel wanted to be held, but lost out to Xia's control. She would scream, he on the other hand would just lay there and stare. We were exhausted. I decided to try to nap with them. Diezel fell asleep right away. More like past out completely. I put him on the bed. Then I laid down and put Xia between us. She was wiped, but didn't want to let her guard down. She eventually fell asleep. As I dozed I was shocked and saddened to look at Diezel and see the whites of his eyes, with the occasional eye ball. His eyes were wide open, but he was sleeping. I looked at Xia, same thing her eyes were open, but asleep. The slightest move and Xia would shoot me her eye of disdain and hurt. This lasted for several months. After a few weeks, they would let their walls down and their eyes would finally close, only to open again with the slightest movement. They both slept with me for the first few months. It wasn't until their eyes finally closed to a sweet trustful slumber that I put them in their beds. And now? They still sleep in our room in their crib(they share) and every night when I finally go to sleep, I look down on their sleeping bodies and stare in their closed eyes and see how far we have come.

10 comments:

Cassie said...

wow. what a long way you have come, no doubt.

Leah Dooley said...

Stef, they are so beautiful. Such a gift from the Lord.

crispy said...

It looks like they are finally letting down their guard. Hopefully they have that feeling of peace and trust.

What beautiful little ones.

Wife to the Rockstar said...

Wow. I am so glad they are sleeping better!!

Major Mom said...

They are precious. GOd is good.

Salzwedel Family said...

They are so beautiful. I'm glad they feel so at peace.

Julie said...

Wow, what a beautiful photo and an incredible picture of God's grace in the lives of these two precious ones. Reminds me of Psalm 131 ... "Surely I have composed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child on his mother, like a weaned child on me is my soul. Israel, hope in the Lord now and forever."

darci said...

wow, that is so sad that even in sleep they were so guarded. what a miracle and blessing to see them so peacefully and securely asleep. what a journey.

Bergmama said...

What sweet little angels!

Laura said...

that is so wonderful that they close their eyes now. i remember them going to sleep with their eyes half open, and us talking about it. praise Jesus for bringing them more and more security in their little lives.