I started today feeling really down. I hadn't heard about the twins. Every week it seemed like I was told next week we'll have their information. Granted, it's only been a little over a month since we found out about them. I really should keep this in perspective but it's really hard when it's been almost 14 months since we began actively pursuing adoption. 14 months! 5 kids we fell in love with and we were sure they were meant to be with us. So given that. It sometimes is hard to keep things in perspective. I think in the back of my mind I keep looking for something to go wrong with the twins adoption. Stupid. I know. But honest. Two weekends ago we thought God had other plans and we accepted that they were not meant to be ours. We spent the whole weekend making peace with it. Only to find out that things changed again and we (God willing) are going to be their family.
There is so much I want to share with you all and I will when they are at home with us. God is so good. And our agency has been terrific.
The most part of today was spent nursing sick kids and wondering if I would hear about the twins.
Again God is so good! Just when I gave up, I got an email. We got a new picture of our babies. After calling my hubby and Leah, I fell on my knees. They need a mommy so bad! The picture ripped me in two. I finally felt it. The mommy in me kicked in full force. The first picture I got a month ago I felt love, but this one I fell head over heels in love.
After taking another one of my kids to the doctor today, I came home and quickly finished the pot of homemade chicken noodle soup. Thank goodness because now my temp. is rising and the chills are coming on. Adam is home for the week. So, after dinner I'm off to bed.