Monday, February 18, 2008

What a Day!

I started today feeling really down. I hadn't heard about the twins. Every week it seemed like I was told next week we'll have their information. Granted, it's only been a little over a month since we found out about them. I really should keep this in perspective but it's really hard when it's been almost 14 months since we began actively pursuing adoption. 14 months! 5 kids we fell in love with and we were sure they were meant to be with us. So given that. It sometimes is hard to keep things in perspective. I think in the back of my mind I keep looking for something to go wrong with the twins adoption. Stupid. I know. But honest. Two weekends ago we thought God had other plans and we accepted that they were not meant to be ours. We spent the whole weekend making peace with it. Only to find out that things changed again and we (God willing) are going to be their family.
There is so much I want to share with you all and I will when they are at home with us. God is so good. And our agency has been terrific.
The most part of today was spent nursing sick kids and wondering if I would hear about the twins.
Again God is so good! Just when I gave up, I got an email. We got a new picture of our babies. After calling my hubby and Leah, I fell on my knees. They need a mommy so bad! The picture ripped me in two. I finally felt it. The mommy in me kicked in full force. The first picture I got a month ago I felt love, but this one I fell head over heels in love.
After taking another one of my kids to the doctor today, I came home and quickly finished the pot of homemade chicken noodle soup. Thank goodness because now my temp. is rising and the chills are coming on. Adam is home for the week. So, after dinner I'm off to bed.

14 comments:

Laura said...

Steff, I am so sorry to see that you all are down and out. I am hoping that the yummy looking soup will heal you all and that you are back on your feet again soon. I am glad that Adam is home with you. I will keep the twins in my prayers. How long do these types of adoptions usually take? Give lots of love and hugs to yourself and the family.

Brandi said...

Forward on that email, girl!! I want to see new pics of them too!

I'm sorry you are starting to get sick. I'm praying the Lord protects you from it. . .but, at least Adam is there so you can actually sleep!

Love ya!
Bran

G Sheller said...

Steffany-totally off topic-but do we have the same countertops? I am a little obsessed right now having just regrouted mine. There are pics on my blog. I hope you are feeling better soon and I cannot wait to see your new babies!

Stepping Out of the Boat said...

Ah, hugs, my friend! I completely understand that heart ache in waiting, waiting, waiting, wondering, wondering, wondering. I understand the protection one puts around their heart in case it doesn't happen. I also understand how humbling it is when we experience God in such a tangible way as you did today! Praise Jesus for the new photos and what He is doing in your heart. Praise Jesus!

I am so sorry that you are getting sick...so glad that Adam is home, but I know this isn't how you envisioned his time home. I'll be praying for you, Sweetie! I'll continue praying for your adoption.

Love Ya!

crispy said...

Get lots of rest and fluids. Hope you rebound quickly.

I will pray for the details of your adoption to go smoothly. Remember God's sovereignty.

-Cris

Emily said...

I hope your feeling better soon!

Wife to the Rockstar said...

Sorry you guys are sick, but I am sure glad you got good news and an update!

Lyndsay said...

Praying for you!!! And I hope you feel better fast. That soup looks delicious.

Danielle said...

Wow, you've been busy since I've been gone! I was able to catch up on the last few posts, aha moments, slumber parties, lice, twins, and sickness...

Hope you are feeling better!

emily said...

Hope you are feeling better- so glad your hubby is home to help with the kids.

Glad you got some info on the twins- I can't wait to see that picture too:)

Major Mom said...

Where are your twins from? If you are able, can we see them:)? Get well soon, eat some soup and give your hubby the reigns for the night.

Fantastic Four said...

Sorry we didn't catch up again! I hope you got some fun stuff! Its amazing what one can accomplish in 20 min at the mall with no kids! Hope you're all on the mend!

Oh...check ebay for clothes! GREAT deals!

Leah Dooley said...

That soup looks really good right at this moment! The twins are amazing and we're praying for them to come home in His perfect timing. He's so sovereign and so good at orchestrating uh...the whole world and everything...He can handle this! I think you got me sick over the phone. Boo.

Christine said...

I hope your family feels better soon! The soup should help!