Thursday, February 14, 2008

A Love Worth Fighting For

It was 15 years ago today that I finally quit running away. 15 years ago today Adam took a huge chance and asked me to be his wife. He asked knowing I wasn't a Christian. He asked knowing my whole past. He asked knowing the chance was really high that I might run away one day. And Yet He asked. I can only imagine the amount of faith and imagination that took. The imagination to see me how God did and the faith to believe that one day I would become how God saw me. I remember the day he asked me so well. He was acting strange all day. I remember thinking to myself, "Oh please let it NOT be that he's going to propose." I knew if he asked me I would say, "yes." I would say, "yes" because I wouldn't want to break his heart. But I also knew if I said, "yes" that meant the life I knew, the one thing that brought me comfort, the one that let me run away from any situation that asked of me what I was unwilling, or too scared to deal with would be gone. I didn't have God to turn to, so I would run. And I would run far. But I knew that Adam was saving himself, his heart, his body, his life for ONE person. I felt stuck. Unwilling to break his heart upon proposal and scared of breaking his heart in the future. I look back now and realize we were both terrified. He took me to the beach and we stood in the ocean. He looked at me, he was shaking, he was crying, he was laying his heart on my sleeve. He placed a rather large and awkward ring on my finger ( it was his grandfather's class ring that had green yarn wrapped around the back so it would fit on my finger). As he stood there in front of me trembling, strong, courageous, and in love, I knew at that moment that I would fight with everything I had and everything I had yet to know. I would fight myself everyday, every minute and every second. I would fight with all the love I had to become that woman he saw in me.
Adam, my love, my knight. You are my hero. As cliche as that has become, it is true. You rescued me from myself and led me gently to our savior's feet. Through your love and guidance I am closer to becoming the woman God made me to be. Thank you for taking that chance on me 15 years ago. You are my man of Steel and Velvet. You are my one true love story.

12 comments:

crispy said...

So sweet. I have been thinking of my man all day and it has been neat to see how we have changed and grown.

What a precious story. Thanks for sharing.

-Cris

Fantastic Four said...

tears tears tears! Thank you so much for sharing yet another awesome story! LOVE YOU!

Wife to the Rockstar said...

HOW Beautiful. I am crying....

Stepping Out of the Boat said...

BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL!!!!

Christin said...

I would love to hear your entire love story one day. soon?

Lisa said...

So beautiful! Thanks for sharing. Isn't God so awesome!!

Lyndsay said...

Loved reading that... thank you for sharing.

Leah Dooley said...

I am so glad you said yes! You are one of the most important parts of my life and I am so grateful that you became part of our family back in the day (You had no idea what you were getting into, did you!). Thanks for loving Adam the way you do. As his younger sister, I never thought anyone was good enough for him until you came along. Even though I was "obnoxious" at first and fought for his attention from you :) Thanks for telling your story!

I love you sister!

Emily said...

What a beautiful story you have!

Laura said...

I am so thankful that you said yes and that you are a part of Adam's life! A part of mine, as well. You did not get to choose us-the Long clan-but I am glad that you and Adam chose one another and have put God first in your lives. I am humbled by you and Adam so often--I love getting to know you better through this life. Thanks so much for sharing your fear and your triumph! Hugs!

emily said...

That is just so sweet!

Brandi said...

how sweet are you?! And you claim to not have a way with words! Liar!! That was gorgeous!

Bran