Wednesday, August 11, 2010

You Do Know...

The last post was not written by me...right?
I am NOT going to stop blogging..



I was really wanting feedback on Leah's post . No. Not for me or the need for affirmation, but your thoughts. The last post was written by my beautiful sister-in-law. It was her farewell that she posted on her blog I love this woman. I love her heart towards her family, but more importantly I love how she seeks Jesus with all she has. Did you read my/her last post? Is this true for you? Is blogging an idol? Do you crave comments and affirmation from strangers more than you humbly seek out God?

For me...honestly.....most days this is true. The first place I go in the morning is my gmail and coffee machine. I get a smile on my face every time someone comments on my blog. Somewhere along the line I forgot why I was blogging. At first it was to connect with other adoptive parents for support and encouragement and to chronicle our journey. Then I think I blogged to keep sane and connect with people at a deeper level. After a while I was committed to blogging as a way to journal my families lives since I pretty much stink at the whole baby book/scrapbooking thing. In the middle of all of my reasons, I was getting wonderful, heartwarming, inspiring and humbling messages from people all over the country telling me that something I posted changed them, helped them, uplift them, give them a much needed slap, etc....In the midst of all the reasons I started blogging(family, adoption, connection, journaling) God showed me the real reason He wanted me to blog. We are meant to reach out, to speak truthfully, openly and shine His light in us. This, my blog allows me to do that. I am not the small group kind of woman, or the club type of woman, I really don't like the phone and I am terrible in most public situations. I put my foot in my mouth more than I should or is acceptable. My blog has allowed me to show God's love, be vulnerable beyond my comfort, help people in some unexplainable way, speak truthfully about the trials of life and not only meet but find some of the best friends I have ever had. To me my blog is a gift not an idol, but that is me. Leah's post was profound and beautiful. I admire that she realized that her blog was not where the Lord wanted her. I shared her words because there was so much wisdom. To say we don't have idols would be a lie. Maybe your blog is not your idol, maybe like me your blog is a blessing.....but truth is truth and for me I want to seek out my idol and flee with all my heart just like Leah.

6 comments:

Paula said...

I feel the same about my blog, Steffany. Sometimes I can say things on the blog that I wouldn't say in front of "real" people. And I love that I can connect with so many different people. Plus I love to write. So for me, it's been a good thing and a positive outlet.

Paula said...

I feel the same about my blog, Steffany. Sometimes I can say things on the blog that I wouldn't say in front of "real" people. And I love that I can connect with so many different people. Plus I love to write. So for me, it's been a good thing and a positive outlet.

Paula said...

I feel the same about my blog, Steffany. Sometimes I can say things on the blog that I wouldn't say in front of "real" people. And I love that I can connect with so many different people. Plus I love to write. So for me, it's been a good thing and a positive outlet.

Melinda said...

Your post, Leah's post, whoever posted it resonated with me. I know I spend too much time on the computer looking at how everyone else lives and pretending like these are actual friends, instead of cultivating friendships that are real. I think part of that comes from so many people I meet online are like minded and that is refreshing, however when I look at my life overall, I can't say my life has changed or been added to because of the time spent online. I am thankful for the adoption community and for getting to "know" others that are passionate about the things I am, and for opening my eyes to things I never would have heard about so for that I am thankful. But I do think that in order for my life to truly move forward and for me to be the wife/mom that I know God wants me to be, I will need to ween myself from the computer. I don't think I will fully give it up, but spend very limited time on and only when my kids are asleep or not here needing me. Thank you so much for being honest and open, I truly learn so much from you.

Jen said...

I started as therapy:) and to chronicle our journey and somewhere along the way it has almost turned into a ministry. I realized the powerful affect you can have on someone's life when you live a life of faith....even and sometimes especially when it is flawed.

Wife to the Rockstar said...

AHHH yes! That is how I feel about my blog too. I am glad you are not closing yours!