Monday, April 19, 2010

I LOVE TRIALS

I love trials.
Maybe that is why I crave chaos...the more chaos around me
the more trials I will have.
I am the type that doesn't learn from others wisdom
or common sense.
No.
Unfortunately I learn from the messes I create.
I learn from my mistakes.
...and
YES
I make a lot.
One day...I will hopefully hate chaos.
Crave peace
and absorb wisdom from others.
Until then...
I love trials.
Through my trials...
I am reminded
and
I remember
Oct 1996.
The day I surrendered.
The day I had no more answers.
The day I realized how desperate I was.
The day I knew what love really meant.
I was loved.
I was accepted.
I was bought.
I was forgiven.
Even though I was
undeserving
ugly
and
undesirable.
In my trials...
I realize how weak I am.
I am forced to grow
to change.
I am refined
and
humbled.....
and
HE IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL!

2 comments:

Jen said...

I heard the following sermon today on the radio. I don't normally listen to talk radio. I could not get out of my car. I was glued and was late for my bible study because of it. It's lengthy so you may not have the time but 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 says "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
If you get a chance:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Jhc50qGnF0

Janet said...

I don't.

I learn a lot from them, but I don't like them. At. All.

I'll just send mine your way and you can tell me what you learned!! ;)

Hugs,

Janet