My Love Song to Adam

In the last few weeks I have fallen in love.
I feel like a school girl.
I can't sleep without thinking of my love.
My heart cries out when we are apart.
It seems like the whole world is against us.

The world tells us
that this love is not real.
that we have settled.
that we need more.
deserve more.
On the surface our love seems
mundane
ordinary
tired.
The world tells us
that true love is
extraordinary
perfect
and
sexy.
ah...but my love is
real.
It is messy.
It is tiring.
It consumes me and my thoughts
Sometimes positive
sometimes negative.
Love is hard.
It requires all of us.
Even when we feel we have nothing left to give
Love is calling.
Love is still there
when you are exhausted
the dishes are piled
bills are unpaid
kids are fighting
you are fighting
roof is leaking
when you are so sick
death is knocking on your door.
Love doesn't hide.
It doesn't run.
Love looks at you for who you are
and
still chooses to love.

My love. My best friend. The father of my children. I love you. Last week you sat at the foot of our bed with tears in your eyes and sang me a song that YOU wrote for ME.
Adam....
I have no song to sing you
but
YOU
ARE
MY
MUSIC.

You are the beat that lives in my heart.
Thank you for truly loving me
for me
in my mess.

This is my love song to you...
My heart.