Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I am Filled With...

I feel like we just got home and already it is time to leave again. Tonight at 3am, Adam, myself and our three oldest kiddos fly to Florida to walk the red carpet of my man's first feature length film. I am filled with so much emotion.

I am filled with gratefulness. I am so grateful the film is finally over. It was the longest 9 months of my life without my man. I am also grateful that my man was able to fulfill a life long dream. He made a movie and recorded music!

I am filled with excitement. I have no idea what the next year holds for our family, but I'm ready.
I'm excited to see my three oldest as they watch their daddy celebrate the culmination of a life long dream.

I am filled with relief. I would be lying if I didn't say that I was looking forward to a break from the three toddlers. I am also relieved that the movie actually got completed. It's one thing to start such a project, but another to actually finish it.

I'm filled with nervousness. As much as I need a break I'm nervous about the impact three days away from the twins will do. I have worked so hard to get to where I'm at with their trust. I'm also nervous to be in the"limelight". I know the film has nothing to do with me and people probably won't notice, but the thought of cameras and eyeballs freak me out a little.

I am filled with fear. Holy crapola! I have to wear heels. What if I trip? What if I walk like I'm being poked in the rear?

I'm filled with girliness. Is that even a word? I kind of missed out on the prom thing and I kind of missed out on the traditional wedding thing. So, this will be the first time in 35 years, that I will get dressed in a gown, nails done, hair fixed and get to feel like a princess. My man tells me that he is more excited to see me walk the red carpet than he is about the movie.

BTW- I found an awesome dress. It is all red. Very classy in a simple way. Some pretty cool shoes and a killer pedicure. Please just pray I don't fall on my face.

13 comments:

Leah Dooley said...

LIVE UP THE GIRLINESS! DON'T BE SCARED...JUST BE THE PRINCESS YOU ARE AND SHINE!!!!

Christi said...

Oh my gosh! You have GOT to take some pics and let us see! How awesome to get to add this to your life journey. You are great and I can't wait to hear how it goes. Be sure and run around your house for several days in those heels to get them good and broken in!

amy smith said...

OH! Have a great time! And bring your camera! So proud of you.. and your family...

stephanie said...

can't wait to hear all about it and see the pictures!! have the best time, you all deserve it.
tip for the heels: pinch a penny between your butt cheeks :) (not literally of course). it will help you stand better!

Candace said...

WORK IT BABY!!! So excited for you guys! You all have worked so hard and gone through so much. Let your hair down, or put it up and have the time of your life.

I can't wait to hear all about EVERYTHING and...there better be LOTS of pics when you return!

Big HUGS for you guys and congratulations, its going to be amazing!

Emily said...

OK I would have to admit I was lying if I didn't say I am a little jealous.........that is going to be so much fun! You will be great and if you fall, just think of all the attention you will draw to your husbands movie.....Woman falls while attending the primier......

Karin said...

I agree with Leah!
Enjoy the girliness and glam of it all!

Stepping Out of the Boat said...

I just want to piggy-back on stephanie's advice with...LITERALLY pinch a penny between your bum cheeks. seriously! ;)

Wife to the Rockstar said...

How exciting. I wanna see photos!!!

Carolyn said...

I am so excited for all of you! Please tell Adam congratulations on never giving up on his dream! I know the road hasn't been easy. Can't wait to hear all about the premiere and to see pics!

Cassie said...

enjoy every second!
how FUN!

Ginny said...

I know you can pull it off. I cannot wait to see the pictures!!!

Randi Sue said...

How exciting!