Monday, November 9, 2009

Work To Be Done

I have not only physically, but emotionally and spiritually been unable to care for my family for quite a few weeks now. I have a lot of work to do. To say these last few weeks have been stressful on my family is an understatement. Today is the first day I have made my bed. Today is the first day I haven't been lying prostrate for 20+ hours. Today is the first day I have cooked in weeks. It is the first day I have eaten a meal. I have lost 10 pounds in less than two weeks. The first day I got out of my pj's. Today is the first day I have really been able to somewhat meet the needs of my family. Today is also the first day in weeks (Yes this may sound dramatic...but true) The first day I don't think I'm dying. It is also the first day after the day I decided to stop taking my medicine. After much research I decided it was better to stop what the dr's wanted me to take for the next 3 months.

The truth is...I have been sick. Real sick. My family has suffered because of it and there wasn't a thing I could do about it. I couldn't change anything. I felt helpless. My husband has been carrying the stress of it all. My kids have tried their best to "help", but they're kids and they shouldn't have to.
The times I have been lucid enough to see what was going on around me all I could do was cry.

I have another doctor visit tomorrow. Probably more tests. But hey..that is tomorrow and tonight is now.
And right now at this moment I am getting ready to roll up my sleeves, put my best face forward and get to work.
The work of being a mommy to 6
and the wife to an amazing husband who I have taken for granted.

BTW- I wanted to thank the few friends and family I have that have taken the time out of everyday to either text, email or call me during this time.
It means so much to me.
Thank you.
Your caring has brought me so much encouragement.

14 comments:

Donna said...

Oh MY. I just cannot believe how sick you've been. I wish so badly we lived closer!

And TEN pounds. Wish I could make you my healthy cream smoothies to put some fat back on you....

Stepping up the prayers....

xo

Paula said...

Steffany, I hope you start to feel better... really better. I'll be praying for you to get back to a normal routine. Also that the doctors can find a way to help without making it worse!

Jen said...

prayers are going up for you

Emily said...

Take care of yourself! I will be continuing to pray for you and your family.

Becky said...

Hey Steffany. Good to hear from you - I have been worried. Still working on the little care package. Hope to have it in the mail by the end of the week. It seems to take me forever to gets things accomplished. For now...I can rest easy tonight knowing you are on the mend. Bless you my friend.

Andrea said...

Still praying for you!!!

*Overflowing* said...

I've been praying sweetie! We've been in the middle of a family emergency but I've been prayin' girl. I was happy to see a post from you tonight. HUGS and take it moment by moment...God will give you everything just as you need it...not a moment sooner!

Leslie said...

I'm really sorry that you've been so so sick. I'm praying for you and for your family. Hang in there.

Beautiful Mess said...

I know it seems like forever and don't all ow the guilt to live---just as this is what you must go through-it will also grow your family.

I am a stroke survivor and I recently posted about my recovery and I think the most important thing that I didn't realize at the time was:

THIS IS NOT MY FOREVER

It was a season--it will live with me forever--but I couldn't see (during the times of being stuck on the couch) that this was only temporary.

Remember that. This is only temporary. As you heal, grow, change you and your family will be stronger!

Praying for you!

Jen

Jenny said...

I was there a few years ago, herniated 3 disks and couldn't move for a month. It's tough, but the kids will be ok in the end. Take care of yourself!
Jenny at www.ourplansmultiplied.blogspot.com

Leah Dooley said...

There isn't anything you can do about it & Adam and the kids know that. I'm so sorry they have suffered, but it also has given them a chance to serve you in many ways. I miss you & hope you are healed soon. Praying that you are resting in the Lord.

Brenna said...

I'm so sorry you've been through such a rough time! Do take care of Mom~ Hugs!

Lory Howlett said...

Steffany, I pray you begin to heal soon. You have been very sick...I guess I didn't realize how bad it has been. Please pace yourself as you begin to integrate back into your life. God has such big, big plans for you....He wouldn't give you such a story to tell if He didn't know you are up to the challenge. But for now, rest and rest in Him.

Joy Portis said...

So glad you are beginning to feel better! I can not imagine how hard it has been and how hard it will continue to be as things slowly return to normal! I wish I lived close so I could help you! Know you are being lifted up in prayer!

I love your idea of the one stop shop for shoping so why don't you handle that since you have so much time on your hands :-) I do think it would be great and of course you can always copy or link anything from my blog!

Praying for you sweet friend!