Just Another Saturday.

Filled with...

Lassoing bandit lighting posts

Tricycle races

Painting benches

Building things with wheels

Being a Rockstar

Speeding down the driveway on the Green Machine.

I Met the Rudest Person Today.

And it was me.


Even now as I type this I'm torn between being ashamed yet justified.
How arrogant is that yet beautifully human.
Our very nature is repulsive and sinful yet we were created in His image.
Our only redemption-
Let me repeat that
Our only redemption
is
That God loves us.
John 3 16-21

What happened today that brought out my true self?
The sad thing is nothing major caused me to rear my ugly head.
I took the 3 little one's to an overpriced, germ ridden indoor playground.
When I went to fill up the mustard and ketchup cups for our food, the huge container of mustard sort of exploded/squirted all over me. On my face, in my hair, all over my clothes and the ground. Pretty much everywhere but the half inch paper cup you get.
I looked back at the kid behind the counter and said, "I don't think your mustard is working."
I kind of expected a, "oops, man I'm sorry let me help you clean it up." Instead I got a, "It looks like it's working just fine...Oh it looks like it squirted everywhere AGAIN".
I said, "AGAIN!, You mean it does this a lot?!" He kind of looked at the other kid working and snickered. I cleaned myself up with my 3 toddlers at my feet screaming for food. I then left all my mustard filled napkins right where they were(even though the trash can was an inch to the left). I accidentally dropped my half filled cup on the ground and it splattered on the floor. Quite amused I looked at them both with my mustard everywhere and said rather rudely, "YOU CAN CLEAN UP THE REST!" I walked away without mustard and sat my kids down for their lunch. Then I watched one of the kids clean the floor and it hit me like a ton of bricks! Wow. I became that woman in an instant. I felt immediately remorseful and went to apologize and was met with ummm.... indifference. My heart went to justification. The it was okay to act like that because....You can fill in the blank. The point is- It's NEVER okay to act like that because. I don't care what the circumstances are or were. I WAS WRONG! Even if the "Kids behind the counter" purposefully squirted mustard all over me - I need to respond in love. I need to respond in forgiveness. I need to respond in grace.
When I was on my back pack trip, I spent time meditating on
Isaiah 53:7
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.

Christ- who was blameless and without sin.
Innocent!
Did not plead His cause.
He who was truly justified remained SILENT!

How often when I,
me,
who is filled with sin,
can't wait to open my mouth to justify my behavior no matter how offensive it is!
So.
I met the rudest person today.
And
It was me.

Need Encouragement to Continue on.

I'm thinking I might be done with my blog. I have plenty to say, but seem to lack the capacity to write it all down. Maybe I'll get a video camera and start vlogging instead. Either way apathy is knocking at my door. My husband calls my blog, "Our family's legacy."
Talk about pressure. I wish I could say I blog for that reason, but no. I'm a little more vain than that. I write to connect. I write as shallow as this is..for affirmation, for friendship, for others to say, "I get you."

So here's me asking....
Should I continue.
If you are a lurker, this is your time to come out. Leave me a comment. I need your encouragement.
I know..
I'm fishing.

Filming

On Friday Adam filmed footage for his commercial. It was mainly shot in front of a green screen. I think Jace and McKayley had a blast.

Getting set up for a shot.

I love this one. Watching Adam behind a camera is a dream come true and then seeing our daughter in front of the camera...wow.

Adam going over the storyboards with the kids.

Jace walking into the studio. He looks so at home.

Getting the costumes just right.

Utimate Fort Building

Broken

My body is exhausted yet strong.
My spirit feels full yet weak.
My heart is burdened yet encouraged.
I am home.
Yet I am yearning for comfort.

As I climbed the peaks,
God found me in the valleys.
As I walked through the valleys,
God carried me to the peaks.

He was everywhere
when I was in the middle of nowhere.

I sought His face
as I hid my heart.
He sought my heart
As I hid my face.

My God was before me,
and I followed
My God was after me,
and I looked behind
My God was with me,
every step
and every breath
of the way.