So much has happened today. I woke up today counting down the sleeps until I leave for Africa. It went from 3 more sleeps to 1/2 day in the matter of an hour. I got a call from Ethiopia this morning. I knew in my heart something was wrong. The babies are sick, really sick. As I was praying about what to do a package came. Inside was Marion and Emmanuel's photo albums. (Marion was our baby girl in Liberia who passed away before we could bring her home) Addy's Hope mailed them back with our old dossier. Why Lord? Why did I get these now? It was then that I knew God's direction.
What a gift those albums were to me. So clear. The answer staring right at me. As I looked into Marion and Emmanuel's eyes everything inside of me screamed, "NOT THIS TIME."
I remember getting the call that Marion was sick. I remember the helpless feeling. I'm here she's there. I didn't have a passport, they weren't even legally ours yet. But yet, I was her mommy and she was alone.
But not this time. I will be there. I will be by my babies side. They will not be alone. I have my passport, they are my babies and I am their mommy.
So I leave tomorrow.
In His Peace,