Be Still

I'm feeling better today. Thanks for all your prayers. I truly never experienced anything like that. I'm still in pain but not nearly as bad. It was weird it didn't itch at all, it just felt like thousands of red fire ants were biting me all over my body every second. It was excruciating. I cried for about 8 hours straight. I'm normally a really tough girl. Okay enough of my pity party, I'm moving on.

We got our Visas to go to Ethiopia two days ago. That was exciting. We purchased our tickets two days ago as well. I was continuing to cross things off my list to do before we go and it felt good. I feel like I came to a stand still though yesterday. And then today our agency called to say the courts lost our adoption decree so we could either keep our original tickets flying out March 22nd and return March 31 in hopes all the paperwork comes together or change it all together and stay until April 6th. I would love to stay longer of course, but I need to think about our kids at home. That's 16 days without mom and dad. Under normal circumstances I don't think it would be a problem, but their dad has been gone already for the greater part of 5 months. I know they'll be well cared for when we're gone. The plan is the first 3-4 days they will stay at Grandma and grandpa's house. Then Aunt Leah will fly from Texas to do an amazing job for 7 days and finally Cousin Candace graciously offered to drive two days from Texas with her two year old daughter to stay until we get back. We are so blessed to have them all. So by the time we get back Adam will be able to stay home for a week before he fly's back to Los Angeles. I have been working incredibly hard on not focusing too much on the details of it all, but to take each day as it comes. It kind of makes me thankful that I have suffered these past two days with the full body rash ( I do mean full body, like everywhere:) It made me slow down and focus on the moment. I think sometimes I get so obsessed with the next moment, the next step, the next detail that I blow past right now and right here. I meditated on BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD. So as of right now the plan is we are still leaving in 7 days!!!! and we will either be home on March 31st or April 6th.